Winning those arguments with myself. . . . . . . . .

April 30, 2009
17 Days until the Colfax ½ Marathon
51 Days until the Loveland Lake to Lake Triathlon
57 Days until the RKC Level II certification
72 Days until the Triple Bypass
170 Days until the Nike Women’s Marathon

Weight: 198

I’m feeling pretty good today. I’m not anywhere near ready for the ½ marathon in 17 days but there’s not much I can do about that now. I plan on walking it and however long it takes, it takes. Hopefully it will be a nice day and I’ll have a brisk four hour walk.

I feel good because I have really stepped up my exercise in the last two weeks and I’m starting to feel the benefits. I’ve put swimming back in and I really love it. What is even better is I’m not letting my mind talk myself out of going to whatever exercise I have planned for the day (mostly). I swam Monday and Wednesday after work and both days I was ready to blow it off and go home. Both days I had a little conversation with myself and just asked, “why don’t you want to go?” There really was no reason other than, “I just don’t feel like it.” Both times I didn’t buy that excuse. I have come to the realization that if I plan any exercise then it is an appointment that I must keep. So far this week I have made all of my appointments. I have also tried to pre-plan things to do at night so I’m not mindlessly munching when I am at home. The real key is to be aware of what I am doing and why. Now I know that this good feeling may only last a day or two so I need to prepare for the negative “f—k it all” attitude. That is my big problem though. I don’t know how to do that. I think, though, that if I keep sticking to my exercise schedule every time that I win that little fight with myself and actually do what I had planned, then I am building up just a little more resolve and some insurance against those, “I can’t do it so why bother” days.

And that's that, said Pooh.

April 25, 2009
22 Days until the Colfax ½ Marathon
56 Days until the Loveland Lake to Lake Triathlon
62 Days until the RKC Level II certification
77 Days until the Triple Bypass
176 Days until the Nike Women’s ½ Marathon

Weight: 200

I’m not going to whine and feel sorry for myself. I haven’t lost any weight in basically two and half years. The bottom line is I want to eat and watch television more than I want to be thin and fit. The frustrating thing is I can’t seem to figure out why that is. I know the things I need to do to be successful but I just don’t do them consistently enough to make a difference. So I’m going to stop saying things like “I want to get this weight off,” “I’m following a healthy food plan,” “I’m working out six days a week” until I really mean it and I really am doing it. I’m not going to give up on the events I’ve paid for but I might make an ass of myself. One day at a time I guess.

With that said, I did have a good workout with my trainer today. He just got back from the RKC I in St. Paul so he was pretty pumped up. He is an RKC II and had to get recertified. He is very excited for me to go to the level II and I love him for being so supportive. I don’t want to let him down but if I were to go today there is no way on God’s green earth I could do a pull up and I probably couldn’t do a pistol, although I’m getting close on that one.

So. Keep a positive attitude. Don’t whine about a bad day. No excuses. I have to want to be thin and fit more than anything else. I have to eat healthy and low calorie and I have to exercise six days a week. There is nothing else to it. And that’s that said Pooh.

Two perfect reps

April 8, 2009
39 Days until the Colfax ½ Marathon
73 Days until the Loveland Lake to Lake Triathlon
79 Days until the RKC Level II certification
94 Days until the Triple Bypass
192 Days until the Nike Women’s Marathon

Weight: 199.5

Well, I’m back in one hundreds (again). My MO is to have one or two really good days then blow it for five days. I have to be careful to not let that happen again. I have had two really good days with food. I haven’t really exercised because of this cold but I think that is a good thing – as long as it doesn’t take too long to get over this nasty thing. I walked on my treadmill last night while I watching “The Biggest Loser” and I had a little bit of coughing fit with too much exertion. I don’t like not being able to get my heart rate up and sweat a little. The Colfax half marathon is approaching very quickly and I have done NO training whatsoever. I want to get out and start running but with this junk in my lungs I can’t do it. So I guess I should use this time to really concentrate on food and losing some weight because of less food intake rather than hyper exercising. There will be times, like now, that I can’t exercise and I will gain weight if I don’t learn how to adjust my eating habits. So there is the silver lining in this cold.

This Cold is Getting Old..........

April 7, 2009
40 Days until the Colfax ½ Marathon
74 Days until the Loveland Lake to Lake Triathlon
80 Days until the RKC Level II certification
95 Days until the Triple Bypass
194 Days until the Nike Women’s Half Marathon


Weight: 201

I’m still not feeling well. I’ve had that nagging hacking cough that keeps me up at night. So needless to say I have not had nearly enough exercise and I’m tired due to lack of sleep. I have my regular asthma check up in two weeks but I’m thinking I might need to get to a doctor sooner. We’re working on day eleven with this cold and it is getting very old.

I went to San Francisco for a few days last week. Given my lack of exercise and non discriminate eating in San Francisco I am fairly pleased that I did not gain a ton of weight. In the long run, however, I’m not happy that I have only lost six pounds in the last three months. I know any loss is better than no loss but I need to be back down to a weight where I can run 13 miles and do a pull up unassisted. I guess the good thing about this cold is it is forcing me to really be diligent about planning what I eat and writing everything down that I eat.

My registration for the Nike Women’s Marathon in San Francisco was picked in the Lottery so it looks like I am running that half marathon in the fall. I ran it in 2005. At that time I was 184 pounds and I was able to run the entire 13.1 miles. I was slow (just under 3 hours) but I did it and I want to beat my time this year.